Is it going to suck? Probably, but I’m doing it any way.
I cant believe 2013 is almost over. we’re only a few weeks away away from 1 A.L. (After Luigi). Here's to the worst best unluckiest year ever.
The Internet is limitless. There are literally infinite possibilities of different websites, circumstances, fandoms, critics, creations, etc. It goes deep –deeper than we can even comprehend. Realize that 99.99999999% of all things are on your radar screen -meaning happening outside of the little bubble that you are have developed for yourself on the information superhighway.
Yet, so many peoplejust skate on the surface. Our society is so superficial that it can be hard to get out of the swing of things, so many people get caught up worrying about what others think of them. If I get a new avatar, will my peers poke fun at me? If I blog this, will my followers reblog it? If I record this vlog with zero cut-jumps, will my friends enjoy it and recommend it?
If I do ________, will I be accepted?
One of the best bits of advice I've received this year is that doing one's own thing is the best thing anyone could do.
Fuck if your friends don’t like it, you’ll attract people who do! So your peers don’t vibe with your _________? It's not that big a deal.
“The opposite of courage is not cowardice, it’s conformity.” –Jim Hightower
But can't you at least try to be just a bit normal?
Yeah. Okay. I guess I can play at being normal.
But I get to keep my mustache. Non negotiable.
It shouldn't be too hard. I already radiate confidence, I think. And how hard is it to share the most boring and in essence inconsequential aspects of your life?
Oh no wait that is hard. I have to real life. All of my time is spent working for engrossed in some popculture or social/sexual information paper. I working on spending less time worrying about others' opinions. so there's that. That's normal, right? And I'm doing well with moderating my own opinions. Which shouldn't have been a problem, but after E3 I just kind blew up in that department. I don't know if I've ever asked rude questions or knowingly teased someone. But I could work a bit more on being less apathetic and give the impression that JuurianChi are a happy, gracious person.
Or I may not do any of these things in which case I will have to be forced to become a hermit. That should be fun. I'll have to buy a cat.
Things I must learn and embrace as an adult:
1) No one owes you anything. Despite what your helicopter mom/dad (always hovering) or some politician told you.
2) Life is definitely not fair. People have insane advantages simply based on what vagina they fell out of. You can't really do anything about this, so why dwell on it?
3) Knowledge in and of itself is virtually useless without application.
4) Hard work does pay off most of the time (I qualify this yes). #1 reason people get fired based on labor statistics is "not showing up to work."
5) Once your basic material needs and modest wants are covered money will no longer affect your happiness level (repeatedly proven in multiple long term studies).
6) You can't love someone else if you don't first love yourself.
7) Realizing your problems are mainly due to your own action or inaction is the first step toward solving them.
I started this list a few days ago, thinking about how I could be a self-sustaining, adjusted adult. Being content with who, what and where you are in life while striving to better your position is IMHO the place to be.
Cool Story, Babe show me your random crap
I actually understand quite a lot more than I let on. Sometimes I just can't be arsed due to need to expound on things that don't really matter like Doctor Who facts, or why you shouldn't listen to advice from Newspaper employees. I have perpetuated that a bit this year and yes. The taste is sour.
Intellectuals and douchy knowitalls who try to shame others by using words or concepts fully knowing that the other party won't understand is a douchebag of the highest order. Share what you know don't use it to prop up your shallow ego, yeah.
Two dorky looking 20 something dudes, "I prefer a woman with a full C cup. Those fake D's just don't do it for me man."
70ish woman near them, "I think you Neanderthals should take what you can get."
Dudes, "what's a Neanderthal?"
Woman laughs and walks off. I am also restraining a laugh. About a 10 second pause and...
Dudes, "That MILF wanted us man."
I'd like to say "The Beavis and Butthead generation strikes again" but I don't want to offend anyone.
oh wait. shit.
Because our heroes betrayed us. They make us think they'll live forever and then they die. I think it's perfectly okay to try and replace them.
As an entrepreneur I think the moment you put your house up as collateral for a deal is when you are in effect "all in" to borrow a poker term. It's simultaneously exciting and frightening. I hope to never have to go that far.
Just do it, to it.
It's true. I have an anxiety problem. And yes. I combat that anxiety by blindly ignoring the initial anxiety and doing the thing anyway no matter what I think bad will happen. Yes, it's kinda shitty. But I don't think I would have ever learned anything if I didn't. I've failed at a lot of things this year, and I'm better for it. Because with many of these things there isn't any actual prerequisite. I can't look it up and actually feel confident in what I read. In business, Blogging, building relationships, being a person of interesting opinion on the internet. Some things you just have to slide into. Or stumble. I guess. Stumble and break every bone but your neck and still manage to get the MacGuffin. yeah. I think that's a good representation of my performance this year.
“You don’t really need to understand what’s going on in order to make things happen,” -Jennifer Dewalt
There are in life moments of profound disappointment; you didn't get the present you wanted, you didn't get the promotion you thought you deserved, the love of your life turned out to be a short term thing. These and many other things including great failure shape you into what you really are. The old staying that when you stare into the abyss what is staring back at you is your character is profoundly true. I have had great disappointment in my life, great failures...but these are all the fuel to be channeled for great creativity! In the words of one of our more philosophical protagonists of modern film, "never give up, never surrender!"
Best Feature Length Motion Pictures this year
(that I can remember)
-The Great Beauty
-Behind the Candlelabra
-The Great Gatsby
-Something in the Air
-The Bling Ring
-The Act of Killing
-Blue is the Warmest Color
Best Blogs this year
Personal Opinion. Don't Sue me.
too many eggs
Black Mesa (Source) Shenanigans Juurian Likes Movies
My Observations of the Ken Penders v.s Archie Comics Court case Why you're still here, and why everyone should care Advice for Creative You and Creative Me Suggest all of your favorite musics Stay True, my love
(The story behind this blog is kinda funny. I'll tell you about it later) Bound 3 Reasons in the hanging garden please don't speak lesson(s) of the day Finn the Baby Doing It Wrong After 6 years, I finally built a new computer (The pictures are gone but we can pretend it was pretty) Shattered Whirr - Lots Of Cool Updates Furbies (Blue tips would be better) locus #XboxReveal a progress report. Derivation Induction Coil in a Coffee Mug 64Poetry Contest My Trip To Visit Parisa In Florida On Level Generation Flash Further Proof that the Internet gets me Introducing Ice for Steam Big Picture I want DRM-Free Graphic Novels. Don't You? How drama on 64digits tends to play out What's your Theme Song? JoshDreamland is The Avatar On Using References
JuurianChi Season One: Hello Computer & SpamBot
If I look at my life as a television program, I gotta say- this year feels a lot like Community Season 4. There were some good parts but for some reason I can only remember the bad parts. The recurring theme of the year being myself trying to figure out the answers to all of the questions I asked myself in 2012. Trying to discover my niches and discover the secrets to things like friandship, entrapanurship, respact, and the population's undying love for Kanyo Worst.[/comicsans] And I got there, the hard way. But our last episode was a closet episode, there wasn't any real character development. The cast came to the defining conclusion, but it feels forced.
Atodev hasn't moved much this year, but we did change our site layout for the better and there are some great comics to read while the Co-founder and I iron out everything else. I feel sometimes that everyone currently affiliated with Atodev secretly hates me because I've failed to pull on the bootstraps and finalize anything I talked about last May. I've taken some classes for Music Theory, Drawing Fundamentals, and Advanced Figure Drawing (not fun), and Zbrush. But have yet to take advantage of the knowledge I've gained.
JuurianChi Season Two: Not a Hero
The training ground period is over, I'm never going to get it back. It's time to get to work and show everyone exactly what I'm made of. In all of my bumbling I've set a series of prerequisites that should be addressed Asap and I'll have to contend with those before I can fully relax. But I'm confident. And my goal is that in the end everything goes right. And I become more social instead of Anti-Social.
Atodev. Atodev is still being worked on. Atodev will probably never stop being worked on unless we hire people who can perform better than our coding guesswork currently provides. And I'm going to flex my creative muscles and get ripped.
Over the course of season 2 JuurianChi will have to contend with becoming a truly productive member of society and strive harder to achieve his goals. Will he meet the girl of his dreams? Is there any hope for the business model Jake is developing for the new year? Is 2014 the year that marks the death of the gif blog? Is there anything terrible to watch/play/read? (Of course not) Also looking forward to:
-The Return of TeamSpeak Movie Nights
-64Show Production to begin
-Reading the new and interesting topics of the year's blogs.
-More Humor. I want to be your Comedian.
I'm not that big on Winter Holidays so I'm just going to hang out by myself and brood on my plans for 2014.
Super Special Thanks to-:
Acid, Abbeyminor, Rez, Princess, StevenOBrien, leemcd56, CyrusRoberto, Kilin, The Late ChIkEn, SirXemic, Ferret, Juju, Rosie, Kiki, FirestormX, Scott McCloud, Average, Sara, MMORPGguy, spike1, JoshDreamland, RobertBColton, Moikle
Special Thanks to- 64Digits Mods
Thanks for putting up with me and thanks for the advice.
Special Thanks to- My Peers
I'm just gonna bit here until December 30th. Later Days.