Why why why why why why why why why why why why why did no one tell me medication would be like this?

Holy shit, I think I need to slow down and give you a concise reason on why I say that.

I have never felt as good as I have in the past few days. It's not euphoria, there's no fear of crash or anything, I'm just happy. Brimmed with energy. My down spurts happen and I'm ok! That's it! I may be a bit more irritated sometimes but overall HOLY WOW THIS IS GREAT.

I can do anything it feels. I feel as if I'm sexy. I want to do stuff like work on games or levels or homework even! And it's extended feel!

WHY WHY WHY didn't I experience this sooner?

For those who do not know I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar disorder (I dunno which type) and I have been on Depakote and Risperdal for 6 days at this point. I'll detail the days and how they went.

Day 1: Slept.

Day 2: Kinda down but I felt it a bit. Works somewhat.

Day 3: Feeling ok, doing better. Etc. Kinda wanting to take it earlier. It's not really seeming to work that much?

Day 4: Slept

Day 5: Bombed a test. Felt down. Not too down though. Felt sexy.

Day 6: FEELING GREAT OMG. I think I finally get why people can work and do stuff.


Ok so I know this blog doesn't contain much actual content but IDGAF it's pertaining to how I'm doing as an individual and my recovery from a major depressive situation. You can go ^s_u^c_k ⁱ_t.

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