currently listening to: linking park - bleed it ot
curent mood: tyler durden

hi guyz how arre you!? long time no posting here. I only ever do anything here if theres some kind of horrible trend in the posts and stuff and I feel like taking part just because I'm a SHEEP A FUCKING SHEEP and I'll follow you to the GRAVE..

...then I'll steal your watch because I need it for my camping survival kit, so I have
- 1 compass/whistle/mirror/secret compartment thingy (I can put some m&ms in it for if I get hungry and lost and need to look at myself while alerting people that I got lost and that I'm also hungry)
- 1 foldup blankety thing (its a survival blanket apparantly which is why it can fold up so much but it doesn't look like a blanket. I hopy I can get it back in the little packent cos I pulled it all out because I didn't believe that it was a blanket (and still don't really) then got bored before I put it back in.)
- 1 poncho (is that what mexicans wear or is that spanish people. I get them mixed up).
- some water proof matches for when I need a fire underwater (LOL) must be what spongebob uses haha. or that episode of Futurama where Bender's cigarette burned down Zoidberg's hermit shell.
- A torch that rattled so I pulled some bits off it then put them back on so that they don't rattle but I don't know if it works now because the batteries can't fit now.
- A tiny pocket knife which is useless because it doens't have a bottle opener. in fact my whole survival kit only has one bottle opener. how the hell am I supposed to open two beers at once on a camping trip. and don't get me started on wine. then again I've got like 4 or 5 other pocket knives (is it still called a fetish if its nothing sexual or is it just a 'collection'?)
- there was another thing and I forgot it
-also a pot (not pot, a pot) that I got for christmas cos my family is poor and thinks I'd enjoy a pot. damn people..
- some salsa (???) I don't know why that's in my camping pile. I dont have chips, its useless. USELESS. CAN YOU HEAR ME SALSA WITH YOUR LITTLE CHILLI EARS?! YOU'RE USELSS AND I HOPE YOU DIE.

that goes for the rest of you.

I love myself in a wig and she loves me. I met her on the 29th of February by wearing one of my wigs in this very room. She told everyone about her wig-wearing talent. I immediately responded to her loving stare, giving her my key to my house. We talked about her working for myself and I took her on. I invited her into my life on Valentines day, and I brought up a se.. certain scene between some people on the internet. Umm, anyway, later that night we started talking to eachother alot, and I read that she had not received a rose on that day. So I decided to give her one through hallucinogenic substances. *missing scene* By the end of the night I had given her over a hundred roses and some rainbows. But I couldn't conceal it anymore, I had to tell her, that I love her. She said that she loves me too. So, this is a personal message to everyone who wishes to suit for myself in a wig, back off, she's mine. I don't care about the fact that we are seperated by about 30cm of hair. I still love her, and I always will, no matter what. This day marks our first 18 years and 3 months of being together, and so, I wrote a song for my love:

http://youtube.com/watch?v=F5sIXUbMgF0

<<!----Screw Pedro, Vote Radnom!----!>>

I've entered a contest to make a B-Game recently - GunLimb. I'd very much like to win, so if you would vote for me it'd be very much appreciated.
It's a very original platform-shooter game.



You can download it [url = "http://www.greatgamesexperiment.com/game/gunlimb"] HERE [/url]

..And here's where to vote...
http://forums.tigsource.com/index.php?topic=523.0

I've tried adding GunLimb to 64Digits about 3 times now, it keeps error-ing up. Really annoying.

<<!------Website!-----!>>
Now that I've got that over with, it's bloggin' time.
My website recently got up-n-running. You can find it here:
[url = "http://radnomgames.com"] RADNOM GAMES[/url]

<<!--- Game Design Course ---!>>
Learning C++ is incredible fun. I'm so, so glad I dropped out of High School for this course... I was so bored. This course is fast paced and damn exciting. We recently started Windows programming, and I have one month to make a full mouse-controlled Asteroids-like game.

Sure it's gameplay-wise a huge step back from my other Game Maker games, but it's two steps foward because it's industry-standard language, and C++ can be a hell of a lot faster than GM when programmed efficiently.

Another plus to being in a full-on Game Programming course is that the other guys doing the course obviously share at least one of my hobbies. None of my old mates play games, which is kinda odd, I guess.. they don't really get my fascination with the coding of games, but they seem to like what I make, or at the very least they're supportive. Of course I get the occasional "What.. still 2D games? Terrible graphics" comment but whatever.

One problem with the course is that the teach... lecturer flicks through the Powerpoint slides at mach II, and doesn't go back if you missed something, so everyone's in a note-scrawling frenzy whenever there's something to copy. Otherwise it's a coding frenzy.

I swear I'm getting at least as much done at this school every day than in an average High School week. It's that awesome.

<!-- More Gunlimb stuff... --!>
If you search "gunlimb" in Google you get about 100 pages, and at least half of them are reviews in like Czech or Russian or other crazy languages. It's really annoying, because I can't understand what the hell they're saying about my damn game!

<!---- The Week Off --!>
I have the week off... fun fun. It's the first of two breaks we get during the whole of the 8 month or so course. The third break used to exist but they got rid of it for some reason.

<!------ Concerts ------!>
There are too many concerts I want to go to... Machine Head are absolutely awesome but I don't think any of my friends like them, which sucks, because I would totally go except I'm 17 and a pretty small guy, and I'm assuming the average Machine Head fan is big and spiky-leather-bound.

Big Day Out is coming up, and the ONE band that I want to see most out of EVERY BAND EVER is playing...

RAGE. AGAINST. THE. MACHINE.

Last year it was Tool, who I wanted to see the most out of every band that year. The Big Day Out is fricken amazing. Whoooo!

<!--- Games ---!>
I want the Orange Box and Metroid Prime 3, but neither comes out until about the 25th in New Zealand. boo.


<!-- Wrap-up --!>
Okay that's about it. Comments please!

Hm, what to type, what to type.

Actually I can think of a lot of stuff to type about . I'm just wondering
A. Is it worth it?
B. What should I leave out/keep in?

ANSWER: NO, NONE OF IT

I are two tyred. may bee neggs thyme.

Inspiration has left me like a fart in the wind
subtle difference to those around me
a world of change for the nostrils of my free time
To stay focused evades me like a cat with a flea
can't pin it down or catch it or make use of it
I'm currently useless- a burden to those who rely on my creativity
I sit and wait for it to return like a boomerang
or the weekend
boredom starts to settle in but never really takes effect
giving way to the deadly feeling
that I should, and could, be doing so much more
I could be out there now having fun playing games with friends
or even better getting drunk to the extreme
and stumbling like a one legged elephant on crack-
but I can't draw can't create can't think
without the wonders of my imagination
I am a shell of a man
desperate for ideas
and much like a dog without a bone
or a musician without an instument
I sit motionless and wait


...I HATE being uninspired. Weekends are so much more crap. I mean, we have Friday and Sat for party-ing (and recovering), then Sun is for me to relax and express my creative and artistic side. But without inspiration, I'd rather just sit down and do absolutely nothing. I can't get any game ideas - and if I do, I can't be bothered working on them - and even going over and turning on the PS2 seems like a chore. Wii is totally out of the question (and I haven't actually played it for many weeks - it definitely needs some more games).


I have 'discovered' http://www.last.fm recently. It's great. It's lead me to many great bands (only one of, Gojira, I've actually bought an album of so far... some of these bands have crazy /forgettable names that I just can't remember at the music store- plus I always end up buying old CDs I've wanted for a long time). I've only had my thingy on it for a month so it's not great yet.


I released some frustration last night throwing sticks. My friends seemed worried. They know I've been just a little depressed lately :P It was after a 'party' which consisted of the 'Drunk Buddies' group - seven people (including me) who end up drunk almost every week (unless there's something better going on, but that's not usual). Other people are invited and all, but this is the seven that always show up.

Man were we desperate for booze or what - Katie drank half a bottle of Vanilla Essense (50% alcohol haha) and we got through some wine, shnapps and... I forgot what else. I didn't even get tipsy, though I musta drank at least as much as the others, and fast (I seem to take quite a bit to get tipsy, from my experiences, but once I'm there I'm but a few cups away from drunk). Katie also drank some Jack Daniels (or was it Jim Beam? I get them mixed up) that had been outside for many, many weeks after I threw it into Tamsin's back yard on my drunkest night ever (I didn't remember throwing it, at all, but everyone else says I did). It still had liquid in it, because the end was clogged with dirt. I can't believe she drank that. it had floaty bits in it and everything.
Later we made 'dinner', which was tinned Pumpkin soup with Blue food colouring (made a sickly green colour) with a tin of added corn (added to the puke effect) and about half a handful of various spices. It didn't taste half bad.

We walked to two different beaches, talked about all sorts of stuff, including how our lives were at the moment, who likes who etc. Katie was very blunt when I asked if the girl I liked liked me back ("No. No she doesn't. She likes some guy in her chemistry class in her own year") which I laughed at - in a way it's good news. And I much, much prefer absolute bluntness to anything else.
Also there's a chance that the girl who works at the pizza place a few doors down from my work likes me... she's always extra nice to me when I get pizza from there, and because I'm a bit of a regular she knows my name and everything, and offers me special things that aren't on the menu, and everything. She seems awesome, and if she doesn't have a thing for me (which I don't personally think she does) then she's a really nice person. Actually she seems to be either way.



Work ends next month, giving way to a four year course in game programming. I personally can't wait, though it'll be tricky to go from a teenage full-time worker used to spending $100 minimum per week to a student who will struggle to simply pay for bus fares, let alone lunch, games and music.
The course will start off with a one-year introductory course about C++, and making a game, then the three-year course will be making a full-blown professional-quality game created with the students doing other courses in the building such as 3D graphics and animation.
Anyway, it'll be amazing when my whole life revolves around game creation. That's my dream, and I'm living it, and I'm getting in early - 17 is probably the youngest age I could possibly be in this course at.


Now to end my blog with some useless trivia about myself, because that's how most blogs here go:

My current top 5 bands, then top album from that band:
1. Tool - Aenima
2. Opeth - Ghost Reveries
3. Die! Die! Die! - DIE! DIE! DIE! (EP)
4. Dream Theater - Images and Words
5. Machine Head - The Blackening