Hi, I'm Ronnica.
*waits for the generic AA meeting "Hi, Ronnica."


So what's new? Nothing much going on over here. Sort of the reason why there is a massive lack of blogs or just activity from my end. Happy five years to me, huh? =P


As you can tell, I'm definitely not an artist but who cares, I couldn't resist playing with Paint. Cut and paste are my favorite tools.


Speaking of cutting and pasting, my brother's friends from high school decided to be DJs of some sort and entered a contest to win a thousand dollars. They are in third place so far and it would be really great to see them succeed with your help!

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OH! I wanted to say a special welcome to abbeyminor! Congrats on the new baby and the new membership =P I personally enjoy reading mommy-blogs so if you end up writing some, I'l definitely read. I figure the more I learn, the more I'll realize I shouldn't reproduce, and that'll make the world a better place <3

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Once upon a time, there was a lovely princess who lived in a big castle. Despite having everything she could ever want, there was something she didn't have that she felt she needed. She just wasn't sure what it was.

One night, she stood on her balcony staring up at the stars. "Whatever fills this void in my heart, must be up there..."

"Or, it's down here!" said a voice from below.

The princess was startled, and turned to go back inside her castle.

"Don't go!" said the voice.

She stopped and turned back to the balcony. "W-Who is it? Who's there!"

A handsome faced, well built man had climbed up the vines to the balcony. He was dressed nicely, and he wore a crown.

"T'is I, a Prince!" he said to her. He explained how he was from a castle from far away and was searching the earth for his true love. He admitted to falling in love with her at first sight, and how he was convinced that she must be the one for him.

His words made her heart flutter and her head cloud with joyous thoughts. She too became convinced that they were meant to be together. So, she invited him up to her room.



That night was the most romantic night of her life. They went from talking to whispering sweet words, to kissing, to making love! A night she would never forget. And as the moon set and the sun rose, they fell asleep in each others arms...

But the next morning, the princess awoke alone in her bed. Had it all been a dream? It couldn't have been! She was still quite sore from their love making.

Days and nights had passed and the princess's heart started breaking from the loneliness. Her mind was confused weather or not she had really met a prince, or if he was real. She couldn't think of anything else but that one night. The confusion started making her sick to the point where she threw up every morning. She began eating foods she didn't really care for before. She noticed her dress size going up and how her belly began to protrude.

Eventually she felt she was going insane! The butterflies she felt in the past were now knocking around in her tummy, as if they were trying to get out. What kind of witch's spell was this?!

After months of her body's changes, she felt she couldn't take it any longer! Just as she was getting into bed one night after a day of pain, her gut relaxed and she felt that she had soiled herself by accident. What had just come out of her? After hours of pushing and feeling something leave her body, she was left with baby doused with blood and fluids.

She stayed up all night cleaning the child and calming his small cries. How did this occur? What kind of wizard's trick was this? She stood on the balcony holding her baby, watching the sun rise. Still a little confused, and still lost in her mind, she searched for that feeling. For that void.
She couldn't find it.
The void was gone.

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He rolled onto his back and exhaled slowly. The heat from the fire warming the side of his head, he blinked slowly trying to focus. She was leaning over above him, smiling softly but her eyes were fogged with worry. He reached up and touched her face, remembering the feel of her skin. They were lost in a moment until he felt little wet droplets fall on him.

He wiped them off of his face, realizing the texture was odd. He looked at his hand. It was stained. Red. He looked at her, confused. Her smile faded. “Oh god, Princess. What did you do?”

She bit her lip delicately and looked towards the flames. He followed her gaze as he sat up. Their vehicle was on its back, burning to its bare metal. His jaw dropped. The sound of the fire flickering, the reek of burning tires, and shattered glass on the pavement… how the hell did he survive?

He looked back to her and saw she had small cuts on her face from the glass. Her brown bangs were stained red and streaks of blood dripped down her neck. He looked down at himself. Clothes torn and singed, his hands were peeled by broken glass.

Adrenaline started to kick in. He pushed her away as he stood up quickly, wincing at the pain in his body. He stood facing the car, looking up and down the road should other drivers see them. He turned to her, “Where the hell is she?!” he demanded to know. “For the love of god, Princess, what did you do?! What did you fucking do!”
He forcibly pulled her up to stand and look him in the eyes.

She whimpered before answering in a shaky voice, “She had a gun. She was going to turn us in and make off with everything! I swear, I was only thinking of us!” He punched her across her face, staining her skin with his bloody knuckles. She fell to the ground, crying but not making a sound.

He covered his eyes with his palms, facing the dark sky. Taking a few deep breaths, he ran his fingers through his hair roughly. She got back up, her face swelling. He glared at her, “She was our ticket out of here!”

Princess shook her head, “No, the money was going to save us, not her. She couldn't do anything for us!”

“Then what did you do to her?!”

Silence. But in the silence, he started noticing an odd smell coming from the car.

“I just…”

“Left her in there?”

She nodded, and then walked a few paces to the bushes, reaching through twigs and thorns to reveal a briefcase.

He couldn't believe his eyes. “Princess, I’m-“

“It’s fine. Let’s just get moving.” She said, tossing him the briefcase.


=] Confused? Just some light writing I wanted to do. Not exactly in the direction I was aiming for, but whatever helps get out of a writers block.

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For the trillionth and one time, I can't wait to be free. I wanna forget all the mistakes I made, all the consequences. All the people that entered my life without wiping their shoes. All the blood I wish I could shed instead of tears.

How dare they take away pieces of my soul. How fucking dare they feast on my self respect. They are dangerous to my life. But one day I will be poison in theirs.

Uh oh, two blogs on the front page! Getting crazy with my blogging ability! Somebody stop me- ouch, face.

Okay so I'm just waking up from a nap, feeling A-OK. Had my wisdom teeth removed this morning. About 8 hours ago from this blog post. I think.

The whole deal with my wisdom teeth, is that they are were impacted. What this is means is they were not fully out of my gums. I had to go to an oral surgeon. During the consultation he explained to me what they do in the case of impacted wisdom teeth. Let me share that information and my experience with you.

So they hooked me up to an intravenous, and stick heart monitors on me (two on my upper chest, one on my lower left side). Then they injected what I assumed was the anesthesia stuff or whatever in the IV. I remember the surgeon saying, "This is the stuff that's gonna make you sleepy, but it wont knock you out right away."
Honestly, a minute later I was OUT.

While I was asleep, the oral surgeon and his assistant went to work. How they kept my mouth open, I will never know. Anyways, to remove impacted wisdom teeth, they make an incision in my gum line from in front of the wisdom tooth to the back of it (essentially the back of my mouth), they proceed to pull that flap down to reveal the rest of the tooth. They crack that tooth in half, and pull it out piece by piece. They do it for all the wisdom teeth.

The dangers of impacted wisdom teeth are that if the tooth is still too far into the gums, breaking them can cause nerve damage that will leave your chin and bottom lip numb forever. So I have to wait until tomorrow for the numbness to wear off and if it doesn't, I'll know something went wrong.

As for waking up, I felt myself sort of be aware that I was sleeping, and opened my eyes. There was no one in the room. I had an ugly blanket on me. I tried focusing my eyes on the window but I still felt kinda sleepy so I shut my eyes, and opened them several times. Finally I tried moving and it kinda woke me up. The doctor's nurse-assistant-oral-hygienist came in and was like, "Oh! How are you feeling?" I said I felt okay and that's when I could feel my entire bottom jaw was just numbed out to hell. Good thing too, I suppose. She got me my sweatshirt and helped me off the chair. It was felt like that one time I got drunk, and the room was moving and I was trying to walk straight, but it didn't really happen. It also didn't feel as happy.

They handed me over to my husband then we walked got to the car. I sat in the front seat and pulled the visor down to look in the mirror at my face. My mascara had smudged onto my cheeks as if my eyes had been watering. My bottom lip is all puffy. I opened my mouth in the mirror and could see there was still blood all over my tongue and teeth. I noticed there was blood on my T-shirt too. I kept my mouth shut until we got home where I rinsed my mouth out and brushed my teeth. There was quite a bit of blood. For obvious reasons. But still, lots.

Anyways, still laying in bed from my nap. I'm feeling sleepy again. I hope when I wake up and check back in, everyone will have silly stories for me to cheer me up. I love derailed comments. But not always.

Off to chew on more gauze.

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Hi everybody!

So this is slightly random, doesn't really have a point to it. It’s one of those things that have happened but I’m only just realizing that it bothers me. Again, it’s random, and I really hope that I don’t offend someone.

Yesterday I was teaching ESL and only one student came. His name is Pedro and he’s like 60-something. He’s originally from Nicaragua, been in Alaska for 20 years, wants to improve his English because he’s also a church pastor and wants to be able to share the word of God with more English speaking people.

Anyways, he was telling me a story (as best as he could in English) about his last missions trip to Nicaragua. While he was there, he explained to me that a 10 year old boy asked, “So you’re from Alaska? Does that mean you speak English?” and then they proceeded to talk for a while. Turns out the kid was born and raised in California, but ended up in Nicaragua because his parents were deported.

That doesn't really bother me. That happens A LOT in America and yes, it sucks and immigration laws should be different and whatever. I’m not into politics so that isn’t what I’m bitching about. What seems to bother me and make me think is that he then tells me, “I’m a big part of my church’s ‘program’ against abortion.” And then compares deporting an American-born child to his parents’ native country to abortion. “Either way, it’s just getting rid of children.”

…I disagree. Relocation of a person (as unjust as it seems) and a medical procedure (as unjust as it seems) appear very different to me. I don’t feel it’s a fair to compare the two. Only I wasn't sure how to explain that to Pedro without offending him.

Another thing that comes to mind is when I was 15 and living close to Vancouver. We had a church youth meeting and the topic was something like “Being able to defend God’s plans,” which required us to come up with topics like Abortion, Stem Cell Research, Cloning, Gay Marriage, and write out Bible verses that “proved” why all those things were against God’s will so people couldn’t “shake our faith.” My brother and I were among the most unenthusiastic ‘youth’ there.

What that has to do with aborting/deporting American-born kids I don’t know. I think my brain just compares it all to how in my opinion, the church (or the churches I've gone to, who knows, it’s probably just me) dramatizes everything and makes it the world sound worse than it really is. Woman gets raped, can’t raise the child so terminates her pregnancy. American born child is deported with his family because his non-citizen parents are not allowed to be in America. “OMG HOW EVIL THEY’RE ALL GOING TO HELL!!!!!!”

I don’t know if that’s an appropriate response, but that’s how Pedro feels. I also assume he’s not the only one. It’s just… it doesn't sound right. To me, at least.
ANYWAYS, I hope y’all are doing alright. I’m getting my wisdom teeth removed early on the 12th. Wish me luck. Or pray for me =P

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