Hello Everyone.

(read if you want)

Thanks to a amazing friend I have to opportunity to meet the person that inspired me to be a Youtuber. I guess I really haven't gone into detail about why I wanted to be a youtuber. I guess it kinda starts with little me. I grew up with interesting circumstances. I lived with my mom till I was about 10 but while I lived with her, I moved multiple times and had to deal with family issues. You see my family often disliked my mom, mainly because she had a very different opinion than them. They are the sort that believe if you have money, you have love, or quite simply Money=Power=Love. My mom on the other hand believed that you don't have to have things, such as money or a nice house to be happy or make people happy. Unfortunately she was a bit to strong of a believer and was often the cause of her own destruction. She quit all of her jobs and due to that did not pay rent or utilities (I don't ever remember having hot showers). This eventually lead her to have a major life crisis where she thought that the only way to be happy involved drugs. That's when I moved in with my grandmother for the final time as my mom was arrested after not only DUI but for causing a major crash on a interstate and then skipping court. Now as it is with a small town news spreads fast and I soon became the ass end of jokes which made my life a hell…I suppose that is when I started to develop my depression but it wasn't major issue until I started getting into fights. Finally my grandmother had enough of me coming home in tears or with bruises and moved us to a small town south of where we were living, when my mother found out she thought I had betrayed her and that cause some major issues.

Anyways when school started I figured it was going to be the same but to my surprise the only thing that ever got me into trouble was when a asshole made fun of a girl I was dating and threw me into a bookshelf. Then I got to highschool and soon made a name for myself (I may have accidentally found my way into very important school documents on the computer by accident) but soon after history began to repeat itself. People started to bully me and I got into fights. Which led people into thinking that I only wanted to fight. Which led to someone telling me that this dude, Sean (ski, he is my co-host and best friend) wanted to fight me. I had finally had enough and walked outside after school up to him and challenged him to fight…it went something like this:

Me: "Hey I heard you wanted to fight"

Sean: "Hi I'm Sean"

Me: "….uhm…"

Sean: "…."

Me:" …"

Sean: "You like video games?"

———————————————–And then, boom, friends

But even with a best friend who threw a dude into a tree because he was kicking my ass, school was still rough (especially when my gf started cheating on me…with 3 guys) But anyways one night after I had had a bad day I got on youtube and started watching EEVBlog (A really good engineering video blog and guide) I had really wanted to be a electrical/mechanical engineer so I wanted to learn everything. Well anyways one of Markiplier's videos were in the suggested videos list…so I watched it…..5hrs later…I felt happy for the first time in a long time. So I told Sean about him and he said he already knew of him, I continued binge watching. Till I came across Wade's channel. I watched both of their "About Me" videos and felt that if they had really rough lifes and we able to overcome it that maybe I could to. Unfortunately my first attempt failed..so I came up with the idea: Hey If I become Mark famous then everyone will love me (Power=Love) I even asked Sean if he wanted to make videos with me. But after awhile I made videos because it made me feel better, it made me happy…I felt like I belonged so to say. So I stopped the whole Power=Love and started the whole Family/Friends=Happiness…But every time i felt that I was failing why I wanted to make videos (To help people like me who were depressed and angry smile and laugh and show them that life gets better, that they can make it better) I would watch Mark or Wade or Bob and know that as long as I tried to make a difference that I would make one, and I thank them and honestly I hope I can thank them in person for that. Sean may be angry at me for my original thought process but I know that I want to and have always wanted to make peoples lives better in some way.

So this weekend I will be going to Indy Pop Con to met the guys who changed my life and hopefully thank them personally. Wish me luck.

And I will see all of you after the long weekend :) Adios my friends!