okay hello everyone. So, late last month i decided to stay with my girlfriend, being xmas time and all i didn't feel right leaving her, plus other reasons.

Well i had a moment of weakness, about the middle of the month and had to see my exgirlfreind as a way to see my son, which doesn't make it right but still, you gotta do what you gotta do, to qoute a great man.

Well anyways, stuff was going pretty great, the guilt was eating me up but i wasnt the first time ive done it. To her? Yes. So i kinda pushed it to the back of my mind, we belive in trust and pretty much built a decent relationship on trust, except for my big setback. Yes i felt bad but i had to do it to save our relationship and the relationship with my son. Im only a man damn it, there was some complicated stuff happening in our relationship bedroom wise.

So anyways, her brother was in trouble and she needed to borrow money from me, okay why not, we were in this together. Well she comes home from work the next day and tells me that we cant afford this house any more and her brother already signed off and out of his aprtment, so my money was for her half of the deposit. I was irate. So while iw as packing up to leave her she was crying and saynig not to do it she cares so much ect ect. So, still not having my money i decided to stay with her, stuff is hard right now in our realtionship, she fucked me over soooo bad by doing that but she apoligized out the wazoo about it and genuinely seems upset and wants to continue it. So say why not? I got way more money back than what i loaned her, and other stuff as way of apology, she did it to help her brother out, as in, she mentioned it months ago before we got together and he went ahead and did it. So im back at home, at 23, feeling like a huge creeper. But we are working on it. In fact im stepping out with my freind to drink and run around but staying faithful. Which really really surprised me.

Oh and P.S. Shes not a huge bitch, really pretty sweet, a teenager that also happens to be pregnant so i gotta cut her some slack.

I know pretty much everyone on heres a big ole honking jerkface but it was nice to get it out to strangers, i feel better anyways.

Also, im chat rouletting right now so im typing one handed, please excuse the typographical errors.