This is my third day of isolation.

Oh god.

And what has my move last year showed me?

It showed me that I have a very… very limited time on this earth. And that if there are things I want in my life, I'm sure as shit not gonna get them by sitting on my hands.

I joined this website in 2006… that was… 11 years ago! It's crazy to think about, because besides the one layout change it has gone through… it really hasn't changed much. The userbase itself is similar even though now there are different players. And I personally understand why… the in-person interactions that aren't painful anymore as they used to be back when I was an ackward teenager back in MSN spending my summers talking to the active users then. Now I enjoy talking to my co-workers, even though I realize it's a temporary passing of time. Technically, so was this site. But the fact that real life is now more enjoyable (as it has the past few years) than online interactions… I can't be the only one that experienced this.

My girlfriend's coming back today, and in the past 72 hours, I have cleaned the apartment, opened up to my fellow co-worker, worked on my game, read, played Alpha Sapphire (after re-buying it… not sure if I mentioned all my games got stolen when I first moved to this city) and binged watched Archer while doing laundry.

My next move career-wise is go back to school. I will raise my grades up, apply for the Nuclear Imaging program that takes two years to complete, then after that be an excellent candidate to become a Physician Assistant. Considering the fact I came from fucking dirt roads when I was born… my life is going, still, fucking great.

So I've gone on a reading binge in the last year as well, here are the books I've read:

- Looking for Alaska (again LOL)

- Midnight Club

- Ties that Bind

- some other book about a dude stealing identities.. forgot the name

- The Host (yes, by steph meyer, actually not to bad at all)

- Angels and Demons (again, fuck this book is tits)

- The DaVinci Code (i realized Dan brown keeps reselling his books under a different name by reading this one)

- The Shining (new favorite book, holy tits the movie adaptations were fucking trash)

- Doctor Sleep (the Shining sequel. Oh my dick can only get so erect. Loved both of these)

- The Rook

- Stilleto <- stuck on this one cuz bored

So I've thrown video games to the trash can for the most part. I went to this year's Evo to compete in Melee. I got my ass handed to me pretty quick… looking at my reading list and the notebook I've been composing to finish Cursed Black… I'm kind of not wondering why I did so bad anymore since I realized after I lost I really haven't been putting in my 100% in Melee.

But w/e!!! Cuz man I am so happy about the progress on my game. I started the fourth re-write on January and I've written so many major scripts, plus last year I mapped out most of the overworld and the main stuff for the RPG aspect of Cursed Black is almost done. I'm very excited…

Am I in a dream? I come to this site and I realize how insane i was a few years ago. really what the hell happened to me.