I'm dead inside.

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Ronnica posted on October 23, 2017 at 11:38 PM

...California Living

Unnecessary post but I feel the need to update since its a rare occasion for me to use facebook where some of us keep in touch.

I moved to California in June after barely surviving drama in Alaska. I have family here and they essentially took me in. My own family in Canada was upset that I had chosen to stay in America and my mother is furious. She called me for the first time in five months two weeks ago and asked, "I was just wondering what your plans are... oh, you're staying there? Okay. Fine. GOODBYE." and hung up.

My father and I haven't spoken since father's day and even that was a ten minute phone call. I suppose their mentality (and to a degree, my own) is "out of sight, out of mind." I haven't seen them in two years and I miss my brother.

I actually have a lot of family in California but no one really cares about each other. The aunt and cousins I'm living with are the only people who try to put in effort, hence why I'm here and not back in Canada.

Life here has been okay. I'm surviving. If you're ever in the central valley, let me know!

Ronnica posted on March 11, 2013 at 11:25 PM

...Sell Out

Hi, I'm Ronnica.
*waits for the generic AA meeting "Hi, Ronnica."

So what's new? Nothing much going on over here. Sort of the reason why there is a massive lack of blogs or just activity from my end. Happy five years to me, huh? =P

As you can tell, I'm definitely not an artist but who cares, I couldn't resist playing with Paint. Cut and paste are my favorite tools.

Speaking of cutting and pasting, my brother's friends from high school decided to be DJs of some sort and entered a contest to win a thousand dollars. They are in third place so far and it would be really great to see them succeed with your help!

(Now that I'm finished advertising)
OH! I wanted to say a special welcome to abbeyminor! Congrats on the new baby and the new membership =P I personally enjoy reading mommy-blogs so if you end up writing some, I'l definitely read. I figure the more I learn, the more I'll realize I shouldn't reproduce, and that'll make the world a better place <3


Ronnica posted on December 23, 2012 at 1:05 AM

...Can you keep a secret?

Once upon a time, there was a lovely princess who lived in a big castle. Despite having everything she could ever want, there was something she didn't have that she felt she needed. She just wasn't sure what it was.

One night, she stood on her balcony staring up at the stars. "Whatever fills this void in my heart, must be up there..."

"Or, it's down here!" said a voice from below.

The princess was startled, and turned to go back inside her castle.

"Don't go!" said the voice.

She stopped and turned back to the balcony. "W-Who is it? Who's there!"

A handsome faced, well built man had climbed up the vines to the balcony. He was dressed nicely, and he wore a crown.

"T'is I, a Prince!" he said to her. He explained how he was from a castle from far away and was searching the earth for his true love. He admitted to falling in love with her at first sight, and how he was convinced that she must be the one for him.

His words made her heart flutter and her head cloud with joyous thoughts. She too became convinced that they were meant to be together. So, she invited him up to her room.

That night was the most romantic night of her life. They went from talking to whispering sweet words, to kissing, to making love! A night she would never forget. And as the moon set and the sun rose, they fell asleep in each others arms...

But the next morning, the princess awoke alone in her bed. Had it all been a dream? It couldn't have been! She was still quite sore from their love making.

Days and nights had passed and the princess's heart started breaking from the loneliness. Her mind was confused weather or not she had really met a prince, or if he was real. She couldn't think of anything else but that one night. The confusion started making her sick to the point where she threw up every morning. She began eating foods she didn't really care for before. She noticed her dress size going up and how her belly began to protrude.

Eventually she felt she was going insane! The butterflies she felt in the past were now knocking around in her tummy, as if they were trying to get out. What kind of witch's spell was this?!

After months of her body's changes, she felt she couldn't take it any longer! Just as she was getting into bed one night after a day of pain, her gut relaxed and she felt that she had soiled herself by accident. What had just come out of her? After hours of pushing and feeling something leave her body, she was left with baby doused with blood and fluids.

She stayed up all night cleaning the child and calming his small cries. How did this occur? What kind of wizard's trick was this? She stood on the balcony holding her baby, watching the sun rise. Still a little confused, and still lost in her mind, she searched for that feeling. For that void.
She couldn't find it.
The void was gone.