I'll have to be careful just what I say here. No telling the type of people that view this stuff, as well as their age so while I might just go into a bit of rambling, I'll have to make sure I do pull a few punches, so to speak. While this is mostly intended for visual artists, any kind of 'artist' (or anyone in a similar situation for that matter) is welcome to talk and contribute. Hopefully I can get a few serious answers here to get some kind of info.In any case, some background information to start.For those of you who haven't followed any of my blog posts, I'm sure you've got some idea of things I've been going through lately. Ups and downs, depression, etc. And for those who haven't or didn't see, or don't know much about me?I'm a bit of a "jack of all trades, master of none". I draw (or drew), I make music, I design things, build models, sculpt, compose digital music, program, cook (or cooked), wrote, etc. I've done a bit of everything and I could do them all pretty decently at worst, given the time to prepare and/or re-familiarize myself with stuff.From 2007 until now, I've lost 4 family members - close family members at that - and drifted away from two others (well, one plus a very close family friend and possible stepfather). I've been forced to drop out of college because of money issues, I've failed classes, I've felt cornered, etc. When I talk to others they make me feel like I'm a more unusual case, though I'm still convinced that there are plenty more people far worse off than me. I've got a home… for now… that we may or may not be able to keep. I have food. I've got a job that.. well, mostly pays the bills. I've got passable transportation (friends/family/bus/cabs) and well, I'm not exactly completely separated from my family. I've got a couple of good friends.Anyway, to avoid rambling, I'll simply get to the point of the blog - the question.As of late, I've been unable to draw. Music at times, perhaps. Programming, yes. Web design and some occasional doodles? Maybe. Oddly enough, drawing was a large part of my life. From about 2010 onward, after my father's death and forced dropout (previously: grandmother and grandfather), I've been on the decline artwise. Things I used to be able to draw. I feel more like the kid that sometimes doodled awesome things in class - no major "skills", just some lucky doodles.I'm curious - have any of you creative types hit this kind of a block? Have you recovered? What would you do? What have you done? What do you feel I should do? At one time, pushing through and forcing myself to draw (only a bit) used to work, but it doesn't. It's like a mental and physical weight forces me to do nothing with art when I try now. I'm uninspired and unmotivated. Not with money. No love, no desire. Not even less… tame things interest me, for drawing. For me, Anthony Vincent LoPrimo - the Artist. The man who was nicknamed "Bob Ross Junior". The guy everyone "knew" would become an amazing artist. The man that people were positive would go into something awesome and become rich and forever help his family… is practically no more. At least in the sense that everyone thought.I don't know what to do. I don't want to give up visual art. I really don't. That was my passion - at least I'm still sure it is. I mean I am pretty sure I still WANT to draw. But it's like at the last moment I can't do it. It's like I'm trying to speak in public. It's like I freeze up when I try to talk to someone I don't know. It's like I'm shy against myself. Or perhaps not.Should I relent and go with what I've been working on? Programming, and music? How might I ensure I don't completely abandon drawing? What kinds of things could I do for inspiration? Or perhaps my idea that getting to a mindset that was before 2010 is right - and what might you recommend I try to do? My father is gone.. my aunt is gone, and my grandparents as well. How might I mentally go back in time, or even how might I want to get rid of this block? Maybe my mind is trying to get me to express my emotion in some other way?…Anyway, even my questions are becoming a mess of rambling so I'll stop now. Hopefully someone could give me some kind of advice. It seems people have their own ups and downs, so who knows, maybe someone could give me some advice as well.