The piles of limbs scream to the void...

Posted by spike1 on April 19, 2016, 10:28 p.m.

How's that for an emo title for ya?

Anyway, been a while since I posted, in fact it's been a while since I visited here, I only started lurking again a few weeks ago. But I miss this place and the community so yeah, I'm gonna try and be more active…I say that every freaking blog don't I?

So, stuff that's happened in the meantime.

Well, Shader Sandwich is still selling well, so that's cool. I practically rewrote half the codebase two weeks ago and pushed out the latest version after not having spoken to any of the customers for months…oops. I pretty much left the internet for the first few months of this year actually, only really using Youtube to upload private videos and such. So that was weird haha.

Umm, made a couple more short films. Ooh, I got a new camera! It's SOOOO GOOD!!! Sony A7s II and coupled with a 50mm f1.1 lens it's just aaaaahhhhhhhhh-

Gwenocide Ep 0 - private video, will release publicly once I've filmed the rest, I have a bad habit of starting series and never finishing them.

I hate programming…

Don't ask…

I'm such a git…

It's funny since the camera is so good I feel pathetic in my use of it, I really want to step up my game and make something actually decent with it, will happen eventually…

As part of my Internet resurgence I've created a Twitter account! So now you can hear my bullshit ramblings about eclectic topics such as movies, programming, self-referential emo jokes, songs, whatever. It's shit. Twitter is seriously just a cesspool of limbs screaming to the void hoping to be noticed…that's probably projection. I'm actually pretty conflicted by how incredibly narcissistic I am, and my Twitter account just exemplifies it. It's funny because my friends think I'm humble haha, sure. Ah well…

Art wise, I've done drawings and songs!

Here's a semi decent song about the stuff below:

Edit: Hopefully one of these work XD

Time for some Reiddsan styled shit (sorry man but your posts are…certainly something…)

I've really been trying to "connect" with myself more or something. I basically shut myself off from the world for a year and a bit a few years back and kind of forgot how to human, but I'm getting there. Most recent realization was I had a crush on a girl, which was kind of surprising for me. And I realized I'd had it for about a year. Just the more I got to know her the more amazing I realized she was and since she joined the little filming group I'd just gone kind crazy (that verb noun agreement). So anyway I was pretty sure she didn't feel the same way so I figured I'd get it over and done with and told her, turns out she's gay, so yeah… ah well XD. We're still really great friends and that's really what matters to me anyway so I'm pretty happy with how it turned out all in all; I'm just glad I was able to admit something like that, both to myself and to another person, makes me feel better in some way I suppose.

I wrote a few other songs but they're shit and I can't sing, so I won't make you suffer through them XD.

Done some drawings too - all just copies of references because I suck:

First attempt at drawing in years

Second attempt

Gave up on this one, and then stopped for months because I realized I'd never be good at drawing…don't ask…

Some moral support from the drama group encouraged me to try again, this one came out. Tried to add a bit of color (digitally), think it turned out alright. I still can't do faces to save my life though…

So yeah, that's my dump of stuff. Now that I've returned to the Internet I'll try and be more active but yeah, we'll see…

Thanks for reading! :)

Comments

Quietus 8 years ago

you are overwhelmingly productive. I wish I still had that kind of stamina. Nice drawings. I mostly agree about Twitter, though every now and then something interesting happens.

I had a girl turn les on me mid-relationship, which was pretty awkward.

Good to see you back.

NeutralReiddHotel 7 years, 12 months ago

LOL @ my reference on your blog. bitches be cray dawg.

when you reach the depths of the internet that no man was ever meant to see with his solitary eyes, come back and talk about it. i wanna hear that shit, and from what your title says, not only are you heading towards a dark path but you are sprinting to get there my brotha.

proceed to not kys.

Quietus 7 years, 12 months ago

^This is why we can't have nice things.

NeutralReiddHotel 7 years, 12 months ago

why hel? why. what displeased you my lord?