This is what I'm going to do.

Posted by Ferret on Jan. 6, 2013, 6:14 a.m.

I'm going to get a new therapist. Things used to be that I could always come here to my friends who weren't real and ask them for help, but then those friends turned real and now I care about each and every opinion from them. So I can't ask for help, not here. It has to be someone I don't know, someone with a degree. My school has therapists, and I'll start my weekly visits again. This isn't 64depression, it's been going on for years, I just could never get the words out. I took a count today, in all my notebooks and google docs, and I've attempted to write a blog about it 17 times. I always stopped because I felt afraid. My last therapist told me to stop over thinking, but never told me how. It's all I do and I spend each day thinking every person I know hates me. And that isn't even what I want to write about, but my fucking fear of people makes it so hard. I'm sorry for everything.I don't know if you did these things purposely or with bad intent, but it made me feel like shit. And I know it shouldn't, I shouldn't think that, I shouldn't feel that. And that is what I need to work on.

Comments

DesertFox 11 years, 4 months ago

*hugs Ferrret*

JuurianChi 11 years, 4 months ago

I understand how you feel, dude.

It'll get better.

Juju 11 years, 3 months ago

I don't care what you say as long as it's the truth.

firestormx 11 years, 2 months ago

You could lie, and I'd probably still love you. :3

I know what you mean about "friends turning real". =/

Also: COME BACK.