The hell have I been missing out on

Posted by Kenon on April 4, 2012, 3:18 p.m.

Why why why why why why why why why why why why why did no one tell me medication would be like this?

Holy shit, I think I need to slow down and give you a concise reason on why I say that.

I have never felt as good as I have in the past few days. It's not euphoria, there's no fear of crash or anything, I'm just happy. Brimmed with energy. My down spurts happen and I'm ok! That's it! I may be a bit more irritated sometimes but overall HOLY WOW THIS IS GREAT.

I can do anything it feels. I feel as if I'm sexy. I want to do stuff like work on games or levels or homework even! And it's extended feel!

WHY WHY WHY didn't I experience this sooner?

For those who do not know I was recently diagnosed with Bipolar disorder (I dunno which type) and I have been on Depakote and Risperdal for 6 days at this point. I'll detail the days and how they went.

Day 1: Slept.

Day 2: Kinda down but I felt it a bit. Works somewhat.

Day 3: Feeling ok, doing better. Etc. Kinda wanting to take it earlier. It's not really seeming to work that much?

Day 4: Slept

Day 5: Bombed a test. Felt down. Not too down though. Felt sexy.

Day 6: FEELING GREAT OMG. I think I finally get why people can work and do stuff.

Ok so I know this blog doesn't contain much actual content but IDGAF it's pertaining to how I'm doing as an individual and my recovery from a major depressive situation. You can go suck it.


JuurianChi 12 years, 2 months ago


Arcalyth 12 years, 2 months ago

Similar experience for me when I started antidepressants. Glad things are looking up for you :)

Rez 12 years, 2 months ago




firestormx 12 years, 2 months ago


Glad to hear they're helping. =)

Ronnica 12 years, 2 months ago


twisterghost 12 years, 2 months ago

So…you got laid?

MMOnologueguy 12 years, 2 months ago

Kilin makes everything sound so great I might even pretend to kill myself for some medication, but probably not, because I'm a huge pussy. Wait, no, maybe I can tell them I've got such low self-esteem I don't think I could even kill myself right? Would that work? Who would I go about telling this stuff to? Are you having any negative side effects I might want to avoid?

It's entirely possible that I'm only saying this stuff to appear all edgy and shit, but that just makes me look more pathetic and thus more eligible for medication, so really I win either way.

Rez 12 years, 2 months ago

Kilin, whut?

Taizen Chisou 12 years, 2 months ago

I wasn't aware Kilin sugarcoated anything.

JuurianChi 12 years, 2 months ago

MMO makes me want to start an online drug superstore.