Ferret is weird

Posted by Ferret on March 11, 2012, 6:27 a.m.

The other day I stood in front of my speech class to deliver a 3-4 minute oral presentation about a culture that I feel apart of. He made sure it was a vague definition of culture, which made me happy because I find white people to be boring and my family to be rather dull. So instead of those things I talked to my class about 64Digits, my group of friends that I did not recognise by the features of their faces, but instead their fake names and avatars. At first I didn’t want to do it, I much rather leave 64Digits in a shroud of darkness where it’s safe from public eyes, but I realized that I’m probably not as proud to be apart of anything the same way I am for being a 64Digitier. A bulk of the speech consist of explaining the concept of 64Digits though, because for most of the people in the class the idea of talking together on a forum-esque site sounds extremely foreign. I was thinking of posting my speech on here, but when I speak in front of a class my mind shuts down and I can never remember a thing I say or how I say it; and my physical copy of the speech is mostly notes and was left to live improvisation.

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The other day I noticed that my Google Chrome moved 64Digits to second in my most visited sites, trailing behind Kotaku. I need to fix that, but without pinning, because pinning is for cheaters and liars. School has probably been the main reason, but also because I always carry a paranoia where ever I go that everyone hates me, probably why I never post on Facebook.

I haven’t touched my game since my last real blog. Stupid school, I should get more time in a few weeks though thanks to my speech class being an 8 week course.

I miss you guys. Which is stupid, because I’ve only been missing because of my own intuition.

Lol it's only been a couple of days

I wish to commit social suicide. Just pick up my stuff, and leave all connections behind. Be a new person, someone who isn’t afraid of what people will think of my actions. Dress the way I want to dress, not the way that will make people talk about me less. Make my hair the way I want my hair to be, not something normal. Live away from disapproving parents that constrict me. I’ve dreamt of driving my car in some random direction, stopping when I felt comfortable, and let my old self die. I have too many connections though, too many I want to keep, so I don’t think I can commit something like that. Not yet. Any day now I should hear back from colleges I want to transfer to. I purposely made sure none of the colleges would be close enough to continue living with my mom, even living with my dad would give me more social freedom. God willing I’ll get into at least one of those colleges and then maybe I’ll break loose.

My friends and I have been playing Dota 2 Beta a whole bunch lately. I’m honestly never playing League of Legends again. In LoL, there is basically only one set build that works best on a champ, one best routine, and it’s basically left to skill and team composition. In Dota, there is so much more creativity with items, and ways to play, and no hero/champion feels weak. Though the system requires more multitasking (something that makes me hate RTS games with passion) it’s not terribly hard to get used to, and makes the game more interesting. UI is probably a thousand times better than whatever League is using as well. Though people are a bit nicer and there is a much better system for encouraging friendliness in Dota, I’ve encountered obnoxious assholes several times; so escaping the League community isn’t entirely possible. Maybe it’s these games with such passionate assholes that make me think everyone hates me.

Comments

Ferret 12 years, 4 months ago

@Rez: I fee the same way.

@Cesque: I basically told them the basic history of 64D, how it was originally a place for game project discussion and submission, but then when down for 9 months (or something) and now only "core" members remained because none of them want to leave the people they've known for so long. Your definition, while it's not far off, sounds less appealing ;P

Don't crush my dreams :(

Glad you like it, because I do too, and probably won't be getting rid of these colors and this banner for a really long time.

@MMORPG: What did you do? Also cool song.

@Kilin: Hmmm not quite sure what video to show you, I could give you the Gamescon trailer, but you've probably have already seen that (and it's epicness isn't fully realized until you play the game). Here is a pretty interesting whole match if you have the time for it. (Skip to 8:25 like the top comment says)

And, lol yeah, I never played Dota 1 so I based my answers on LoL when I could and bs'd the rest.

@FSX: Are you sure? I honestly think it's mostly in my head, which is stupid to say because I acknowledged it and still do nothing about it. I shouldn't let it get to me but it's all I think about. Also wtf with the nipples comment XD

I'm not sure if I could, the most I could do is maybe paraphrase it or just explain what I talked about, but I'll never have it word for word or in the right order. When I finish a speech, I sit down and realize I heave no idea what happened, how well I did, or some of the things I said.

@Rob: Like I said, I don't really feel attached to anything the same way I'm attached to 64D.

@Cyrus: That is a much better way of explaining it, much better than my "social-network" equivalent explanation.

Edit: OMFG I FUKKIN LOVE CHEESE

firestormx 12 years, 4 months ago

Quote:
"what the fuck is Thai food?"
It's just food made from an animal's thai. You know, like steak comes from a cow's thai.

Ferret: I'm sure, lol. And your nipples were the first thing I noticed when I saw some picture of you on a beach.

Rob 12 years, 4 months ago

Quote: FSX
And your nipples were the first thing I noticed when I saw some picture of you on a beach.

So Ferret's most recognizable features are his tongue and his nipples?

firestormx 12 years, 4 months ago

I've never seen his tongue (sadly), but his hair/smile are pretty recognizable. I could probably pick him out from a lineup of 3 or 4 other honkies.

Moikle 12 years, 4 months ago

Quote:
I always carry a paranoia where ever I go that everyone hates me
I had that a lot last year, still do, but now I am aware of it so I am trying to do something about it.

I sort of saw everyone who wasn't a very close friend as an enemy. I even thought my friends were looking for excuses to hate me.

LAR Games 12 years, 4 months ago

I've been here on 64Digits for a long time, but I've never really felt as much a part of it as I know a lot of people on here do. Maybe I'm weird, but I've never felt like I was a part of anything.

Castypher 12 years, 4 months ago

So Ferret. Tell me the upsides and downsides to DotA2 versus League of Legends (since LoL is all I know as far as MOBAs go). And be reasonable. Give me kind of an unbiased view. It's not that I'm trying to pick a favorite. It's more that I want to know if I should put in the time to learn another game, which seems to operate similarly to, but looks very different from one I've been playing for two years now.

Cesque 12 years, 4 months ago

Quote:
I basically told them the basic history of 64D, how it was originally a place for game project discussion and submission, but then when down for 9 months (or something) and now only "core" members remained because none of them want to leave the people they've known for so long.

There was also that episode where the site was replaced by the meatspin animation (or whatever that was called), but it's probably best to ignore that part…

Ferret 12 years, 4 months ago

@Kilin: I think I'm going to have to make a whole blog describing the differences between League and Dota 2, because there are many of them.

@Cesque: I think it's safe to say we can ignore that and the 4chan episode…

Zhiko 12 years, 4 months ago

I'd be interested in a comparion between Dota 2 and LoL too, I picked up LoL just a couple months after it came out and have about… 900 wins in normal and a lot more losses and Dota 2 seems like fun, if my poor laptop could actually run it.